rational....

I'm very rational

and impartial

except when it comes

to deciding if I should

act in

a rational manner

I get upset

it shouldn't be so

difficult to

get along with me

BUT

I argue and debate

contradict myself

lie to myself

worse

I believe

myself

lose my impartiality

makes me no better

than those folks

who used to burn people

at the stake

for being witches

when all they were

was irrational

wait

hold on

do you smell smoke?

Or maybe it's a better neighboorhood...

some fear 

falling into

the infinite possibilities

like love

401k plan

children

death

you could be locked in.

trapped in the revolving cycle

where it isn't about you 

anymore...

oh, my;

waaaaah.

quit the whining

you make choices

live with it

you could be

dead

i mean,

what if they play

Barry Manilow

in heaven

infinitively? 

....on a stick....

walking 

early evening

heard your voice in

my memory

"Look, look up! 

See all those stars!!!!"

looked up

all I saw

was a stick

to hang my heart on

#$@!%$ birds....

we went out

a walk

your quiet voice

swung hard and heavy

my back was broken

(the impact of the your words)

the muffled crack

of my spine and confidence

being snapped in half

i lay on the ground

weeping

"...can't move my legs..."

i could hear

your voice saying;

"Oh! Look at all the birds!"